melancholy.

And as the reality sets in I begin to realize I never loved him.

At least not the way I loved you,

Nothing can match the passion and desire I felt for you,

Still feel for you.

No matter how many times I try to delude myself into believing that I have moved on,

It was always you,

It will always be you,

That is the target of my love,

though unrequited it continues.

help.

strength.

please.

and tomorrow.

Tears run down both of my cheeks.

truth.

space bound.

Once you get them, things are never same.

You want them when they don't want you

and as soon as they do feelings change.

And after all this time, It's no longer me that you want

But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once

I poured my heart out to you, let down my guard

I'm pleading, I'm trying to stop you from leaving.

And I would have done anything for you

To show you how much I adore you

But it's over now, it's to late to save our

love.

friends.

I'M A FUCKING MASOCHIST.

fuck it.

Congratulations- you both ripped me apart, bought me to me knees in tears, you've overwhelmed me with so much emotion that I don't ever want to feel anything again. I hope your happy.

forever?

I miss you

I miss being overwhelmed by you

And I need rescue

I think I'm fading away

But I keep thinking that you'll wake me up with a whisper in my ear

I keep hoping that you'll sneak in my room

So I wait and I wait

And I run old scenes through my tired head

Of the days we laid by the school and said forever

Was that the best I'll ever be

I miss you

I miss talking all night long with you

And I need this to find a way to your home

My love can you hear me

Have I been hoping loud enough, wishing hard enough

Can you see me when I'm asleep all alone - alone

Can't keep my hands from shaking

Stumbling through the wreckage again

But you're gone

drained.

why dont you fuck me over a little more?

I need to start being more careful with my heart.

Pretty soon there will be nothing left of it, if there even is some tiny part of it that has managed to pull through during all this.

He broke it and you put it back together because you were already on the inside, I'm terrified because I know no one will ever know me that way again- I love you with every part of me, I know it's not what you want but it's true. I don't hate you, you will always be my best friend but you are to blame for this empty black hole of a chest, a frozen depth no one else could possibly ever want. That's on you.

a broken dream.

love.

On the first page of our story

the future seemed so bright

then this thing turned out so evil

I don't know why I'm still surprised

So maybe I'm a masochist.

sorry.

And i hate you, with every part of me I hate you. Every cell in body hates you, every beat of my heart hates you, every breath I take hates you. You send me spinning out of control on a daily basis, you cross my mind frequently, you are always there. Your name appears all the time, and all the time I think I can not do this anymore, I can not face to see you with her. But I'm with him, and my hate is eating me alive- so much so that I'm not concentrating on the love I have for him- because the love I have for him is only half the hate I have for you.

at bay.

"I love you"

Liar.

for the most part.

if it's a broken part replace it, if it's a broken arm then brace it, if it's a broken heart then face it

you.

i know we're no longer in each others lives now, and i have no say with what you do or where you go with your life, but please.. with all the stupid decisions you make, just look after yourself. i'm sorry i can't help you walk through life, and just because i'm not there no more, doesn't mean i dont care, it hurts you know