?

freedom.

3 Days.

will i ever be?

I don't think I'm quite done loving you yet.

i will. oneday.

waiting.

Even the strongest fall down sometimes,
Even the best fail,
Even the happiest will cry,
and even the most broken heart will repair itself.

In time.

coping.

It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone at the same time. And it's hard watching things change, when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny, but it's stupid, how you want everything and nothing. When you want to let go, but you keep holding on. And you want to move on, but you're stuck.

-Natalie

hope.

You only entered my mind a million and one times today, so I must be getting better, right?

finished.

And when we were done,
I did all the things you hated.

finally.

wish.

pain.

This isn't even hurting,
This is feeling nothing at all.

confusion.

Funny how hate is so closely related to love,

I hate you.

I look back and realize I hate you a lot.

It makes me wonder if I actually hated you the whole time.

Because surely the hate cannot appear so fast,

Considering I thought I loved you.

explain.

done.

And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe.

story of us.

And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?

The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight

worth the fight.

I've been told at least a thousand times,
It's not worth the struggle, the hurt or the trouble.
But I wont surrender, I'll wait here forever.

sorry.

everyones lesson.

fifteen days.

I didn't cry today,
I didn't get upset today,
I didn't get angry today,
I didn't snap and go insane,
didn't yell,
didn't scream,
didn't lose it.

Today was good because I felt nothing.

death.

The end is no where near,
This is only the beginning.

never.

I honestly think I hate you,
Think about it, it makes sense-

you told me you cared,
you don't.

you took something from me,
and I regret it.

you told me you hated her,
now your in love with her.

you told me to trust you,
I cant.

you promised you wouldn't,
then you did.

you said "next time",
when you knew there wasn't going to be.

you planned it all out,
and I had no idea.

I always offered,
you never did.

I put up with it,
you couldn't.

I said it,
you didn't.

Your a hypocrite,
of the worst kind.

And I think I hate you,
almost as much as I love you.

worth.

Just because someone isn't worthy of your love,
doesn't mean they don't have your love.

give up caring.

heart on hold.

I miss you.

reality.

To fail over and over again.
It's all I ever seem to do.
Things will never change.